I've been bulimic for about four years and I used to wish I was anorexic. But it's the different side of the same coin. Wishing for another ED than the one you have can be hurtful to your self healing. No ED is a good ED.

The bloating should go away after awhile. Bulimia really screws up your hormones and the swelling is a side affect. It takes awhile for all this stuff to go back to normal.

I've gained weight while being bulimic (the irony of all ironies) and I think the trick to getting the weight off is not just exercising but speeding up your metabolism (everyone's different).

At least for me, urges have never gone completely away, and I don't think I'll ever be able to just eat "normally." I think we just don't view food the way people without an eating disorder do, so the way we percieve eating is different. I've had to accept that I just don't see a cupcake or a steak the way my friends and family do.

I don't know if any of this helps or not, but I do want to say I am absolutely amazed by you going abstinent for two months. That is awesome and takes an incredible amount of will power. You might never know exactly how much damage you have done to your body but its amazing the capacity our bodies have to heal. I'm glad you're healing.