First of all I do have a psychiatrist and she has been a positive influence in my life. 8 years of non stop pain. 3 psychiatric hospitalization. 3 failed suicides. I have had mulitiple surgeries and now I live with the side effects. Ive done everthing that was available and now I'm gaving my docotor a chance to terminate out of this relationship. I told her that she need to get away from me. I just want to be leaf alone. This will be my decision, I'm such a loser and I've waited too long.

My doctor had built a solid practice and deserve better. I've My promised to be far away. I shoule