I know I'm what is considered manic when I begin to lose lots of sleep. It's just not normal for me to not sleep and be so energetic. Plus, I know there is a chance I'm not thinking straight since my past episodes were similar delusional thinking. But all the evidence and puzzle pieces add up to make me think "this time I'm seeing the real truth". I guess my insight is limited and good at the same time. I know when others might judge me as manic, whether or not I believe they are right can be tricky. Like I will trust my husband when he says "you are manic" one second, and the next he becomes "one of them, or a robot who is collecting data on me to send to a secret organization which is stalking me". Then it will ease up and I will accept what he says a little, only for the cycle to repeat until I'm confused and in tears or hiding in fear of everyone and everything.