So other than anxiety I really don't feel much of anything during session. There was one exception to this and that was when I couldn't think of anything to say so T and I sat in silence for about 20 minutes. I felt really angry at T and even started to tear up at one point. T was not looking at me at the time so perhaps that is why I was able let myself feel a little bit?

Anyway, I feel so disconnected from my feelings that it makes it difficult to process what is going on. I don't know how to change this. I have been seeing this T for about 6 months and I still don't feel completely "safe" for some reason.

Lastly, for those of you who read my last post about T not hugging me, I asked her about it and she said the reason she can't give me a hug is because of ethics and boundaries. So yeah...