Dalia, Yes I do feel afraid because I've realised I can't manipulate people and force them to meet my needs. But i'm stuck in the bit inbetween, I dont know where to go from here? My head is telling me that if I can't do that with people then what is there left to do? The thought of just being in a friendship with no hidden agenda feels like I'm falling through space and no one will catch me. Someones removed my crutch and I don't know how to walk, plus yes I feel so angry inside that the thought of talking to someone and not getting what I want is strangling me. I know this too shall pass, but it hurts whilst its happening. No wonder growing up is left to children, its to painful for adults.