Well I seem to have trouble finding anything in my life that could be a source of confidence. I am 28 I feel like anything I could possibly get into now it will be worthless since there will be people who have been doing it since they were younger and I can never match up to them, and even if I do the fact that they are younger makes them more impressive. I feel like I will never be anything other than average and mediocre and that just isn't good enough for me. And besides to me female sexual attention trumps everything else anyways. I feel like whoever gets the female attentionnis just superior, so if I don't get it I am inferior.