Okay, I've kind of given up...

I've tried to remain positive in all my posts, but in reality, I feel like complete s***. I've had suicidal ideation for like 2 days now.

Pdoc gave me Abilify to try, but IDK if I actually want to take it. Some people report significant weight gain with it, which, in all honesty, is putting me off. (I hope I don't offend anyone, but I think you know where I'm coming from.)