I no theres a brighter side coz I got thru it b4 but this times somethings different. Im either really annoyingly high or really low. When im high im loud, rude, abrupt, aggressive at times, show no care 4 others feelings. I didnt have that last time. I was just always low. Its crap goin 2 bed at nite not knowing wat sort of mood im gona be wakin up in. Im so scared of losing sight of the old me. I'm only 21 - i dont want this 2 be how i remember the so called best years of my life