Dear current T

Looking at the card you gave me for passing my exams, it makes me feel warm, it makes me smile, it touched me.
Reading YOU are proud of me, it feels good, but also it makes me feel bad? Like I'm some sort of imposter. Like I'm lying to you, because you don't know what a horrible person I am. You haven't see in sessions who I really am. Horrible. It makes me feel guilty. And I can't really explain why I'm a horrible person, I know if I would tell you, you would ask me what makes me a horrible person. But I just am.

I can also not help thinking ''I wish I had a card from her (T-on-leave)''...