Eden, I'm sorry things are so hard right now.

I think you should talk to your therapist... I think you have to. You need an ally in this fight, and he can't help you if he doesn't know what's going on. Do you trust him, and believe that he is on your side?

Can you talk to him about the hospital? Is there a different one that would be better for you?

Lots of hugs, hang in there... you're in my thoughts.