I'm so sorry you're going through this. Have you ever been put on Lithium? What about Abilify? Just a couple ideas of meds that help me (my pdoc considers my anxiety and obsession to be part of a mixed episode, so I really experience a lot of mixed episodes because anxiety/obsession is my main problem). I just started the Abilify about a month ago and it's working great. It's taken my anxiety from severe to mild.