It honestly wasn't just today, its been the past four or five. I don't know, they're all starting to blur together. I've been on pins and needles, having very intense flashbacks, mild to severe panic attacks, uncontrollable shaking, dissociation and hallucinations/delusions almost none stop. I'm using what tools I know that have worked in the past but they're not lasting too long and I'm exhausted because of how hard I have to concentrate on it all. Being at work and silently flipping out at the same time is hard, especially since I never get a break away from people.
I don't know what's causing it. I don't recall having any abnormally potent triggers. Then again, I've heard that you can have them subconsciously and those will affect you just the same but I don't know. I work in a place where triggers are extremely common. A five hour shift will contain so many that I often have mild dissociation and become a robot just there to do my job and get out. Maybe I'm just really stressed about other things and I can't balance those with my already existing PTSD.
Just jotting down my thoughts, I guess. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.