We have been going to see a t that we used to see a long long time ago. Back then we had told her some stuff, but not the really bad stuff. We didn't know about the really bad stuff until many years later when we slowly found out about it in therapy. So part of going back to see this old t was wanting to tell her what we had found out since we last saw her all those lots of years ago. We wanted to tell her why it was so hard for us to speak back then and why we were so frozen in silence all the time.
But it turns out back then a part of us (who we still don't even know!) had already told talked to her about the really bad stuff. we didn't even know that! old T already knew it even though we didn't know someone had told her and we didn't know now that she knew. We still don't know who in us talked to her about it.
So much for not being able to talk! t knows a whole lot of stuff we didn't know about til much much later. We feel kinda ripped off!
But on the plus side it sure makes it easier not having to explain a whole bunch of stuff to her, we can just jump right in to what we need to get done.
But what is kinda funny is that we haven't told this t we have DID and we aren't going to. We are trying hard not to switch and when we can't help it luckily it is just us front ones (we hope!) and we try to say I and not we and try not to talk or act too different, although that is really silly because some of us sound very different and act very different anyway. She does give us funny looks sometimes lol.