I've been a problem drinker for years.. trying to sober up for about 2 years now.. seriously for about 1 my Dr's office is trying to get me on meds. I went 38 days on my own and screwed up then today a week later screw up number 2.. there can't be any more.... husband has threatened to leave now with all my empty promises. I can't seem to keep up. Only 1 friend left I drink with/ used to drink with and I don't want to lose him yet can't afford weak links. I'm not sure what to do. Groups scare the **** out of me. Have an AA book. Doesn't feel right. I don't know, I don't know what I'm doing anymore...