I agree that finding a partner shouldn't be a priority here. Your thoughts process and your view of yourself and others as well as difficulty with social skills are in need of help. Unfortunately since we don't see you in real life and don't know how you interact it's difficult to suggest what you need to change specifically . You would truly benefit from mental health professional such as social worker or therapist or perhaps psychiatrist. It might be even beneficial to print or show him/her your threads on here so they know where to start.

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk