I dunno. Maybe it is just my perception, but your posts have sounded pretty manic-y lately. Are you sure it's not an urge to keep amplified?

Hmm. It just occurred to me that you've been saying lately that you don't think you've got BP. So maybe it is not manic, as you wouldn't have that. Or maybe it is the feel good aspect of mania that makes us think, "it's all good now!"

Maybe I'm way off, but it might be something to consider.