Those are some of the major issues, the no-money, no friends, nothing to do. That's basically my life in a sea shell. But it will get better. You'll find what you need. Things take time to happen. The really bad issue right now is you're splitting away from your meds. The impact could take weeks or months to process. And meanwhile you're getting far worse with your good goals because you're in discontinuation from a whole meds cocktail. Stopping meds can have terrible results. You know that. What you need to find is something to turn to when you're getting upset at the good goals. You just need to find a way to be less impulsive.