My BFF here in Illinois had a birthday party for her son who is turning 4 tomorrow. Anyway, I was of course there, but I ended up leaving early. I made excuse that I was getting tired, which is partially true, but I really left early because it was way too crowded at their house and my anxiety was about to go through the roof. Sometimes I just wish I could take back this stupid diagnosis, or crawl into a hole and just hide from reality. Is it bad to feel like this? I feel guilty for leaving early and not even helping to clean up, although I did help with the setup. Maybe I'm just too hard on myself?