Thanks RainyDay.

Today is day 31, and while I'm happy about that, I feel like all I've accomplished in the last month is not drinking. Now I know that's a REALLY big deal for me, but I still feel like a slacker for not doing more (that's my brother's voice talking in my head).

I've got so much I could be working on between now and going to residential rehab. Cleaning my room, my 2 computer courses, and my CFE prep course. Just no motivation.

I'm thinking of asking to go into my current rehab's IOP rehab for the 8 weeks between now and going into CAITS. It would get me out of the house each day, and give me some structure, and once I'm up and about, I find it easier to keep going. It just feels like a bit of a cop out. But I do think I could use the support. I'll talk about it with them when I go to contemplative tomorrow.

I just wish it wasn't so freaking hard.