At one point or two, I have.

Maybe more, who's counting? Point was I was able to stop myself just in time and nobody got hurt.


Have you tried addressing these thoughts and their roots in therapy?


I honestly believe if you can process the trauma it will relieve you of this manic drive. Who knows, you may even get a happy mania or two.


If you're not going to do that, well then a safety plan really needs to be put into action so that you don't carry out your vengeance. But that means trusting somebody, maybe more than one somebody to assist you before you hit that point.


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