Hey, guys.

I had my first hypomanic episode two days ago (I'd been having recurring depressive/stable rapid cycling moods, but was at risk for hypomania), probably because of the antidepressant that I had to slowly cut down on this week, but I didn't, lest I break down into depression again. (Yes, that was a mistake.)

So the symptoms I experienced were irritability, uncontrollable laughing, giggling and grinning, feeling on top of the world, flirting excessively, increased sensitivity to sounds, and wanting to go out and do risky, 'fun' things like getting drunk and having sex (which I couldn't do, because I'm twenty years old and at my parents' at the moment and have no friends in the city). I think I also experienced some hallucinations, but I can't be sure, because I'd just woken up then and might have confused it for a dream.

I'm waiting to meet the right guy and don't want to engage in any risky sexual behaviour once I get back to college, which - as we all know - is the breeding ground for such activities. But my sexual urges were so bad and terrifying that I couldn't do anything but think about sex pretty much both the days I was hypomanic.

I also threw up repeatedly on the second day and woke up feeling like I had a terrible hangover. I had some symptoms, but not all, and as the symptoms weaned off, so did the vomiting. Has anyone else experienced this hangover symptom? I know it can't be anything else, because I hadn't eaten anything iffy the past few days.

And is this hypomania for sure? My next therapy appointment isn't till July and my self-diagnosis is based off what research I've done in the past few months.

Any advice/info would be greatly appreciated. Thanks for reading, guys!

Swati