I understand your feelings. With Bipolar, sometimes I get sensitive to to being in environments with too much stimulation (crowds, loud sounds, out of comfort zone). I also understand the guilt of not being able to follow through with the things we want to do, but it's all part of it. Sometimes I avoid going places and make excuses during certain times. I feel guilt, but look back and realize we all have our limitations and have to take care of ourselves when feeling that way when faced with pressure. Symptoms come and go though....plus, therapy and medication could help make a lot of days more manageable. So I try to approach those days reminding myself, "It's not going to be like this every day." Like others said, go easy on yourself. You are going to have your good days, and your bad days. It's normal. It just sounds like you are going through a more difficult time than usual.