Hypo: Amazing. Don't sleep much so I have tons of time and energy to accomplish a lot of things. I'm a student so it usually looks like me getting all my work/assignments done months in advance. I have a million "genius" ideas, I start projects (which I never finish), really peppy and bubbly
Manic: start to make really impulsive and sometimes dangerous decisions, spends tons of money, do sketchy/dangerous things like go running in the middle of the night (don't live in the best neighborhood)... Many times I've made huge, life-altering decisions with absolutely zero thought
Depression: horrible but also the most familiar. Feel worthless, can't do homework, can't read, can't talk to people, can't even get out of bed. Hardly eat anything because I have no appetite. Usually feel suidcidal
Mixed: Scary because I still have the thoughts of when I'm depressed but I have the energy to act on the thoughts... this is usually the state I'm in when I self harm
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stay afraid, but do it anyway.
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