I relate to this a lot. I'm on day 2 with no sleep because I didn't take my AP, which helps me sleep. Scratch that. I basically will sleep if I take it. If I skip it, I will not sleep at all. So I know what I'm in for and it sounds like it's similar for you.

I don't want a "bedtime," I'm not a baby. That's my thought process. I don't think it's particularly irrational, either. It's how I feel. I like nighttime, it's my favorite part of the day.

Major life STRESS is what triggers full mania with psychosis for me. Missing a couple of night's sleep does not. Also, my boyfriend has bipolar 1, he relates and if he says you gotta get sleep absolutely, I'll do that. We watch out for each other.

So yeah, I do this sometimes. And then I get solid sleep for at least a few days.

You said devastating consequences are possible for you...what types of things?

(No lectures, please. I know take meds as directed, etc., too risky, etc.)