So it's only been a few days since I switched from 10 mg of citalopram to 300 mg of bupropion xl. I realized last week my bipolar was destabilizing into depression.

Each day is so incredibly hard and insufferable. I have my own company, work for a bakery, and I am the president of a non-profit. The last two weeks nothing has gotten done and the work is just piling up and I am sitting over here in the corner with a blanket over my head trying to block the entire outside world out. Each day I wake up and ask myself why bother, screw work, I want to go back to bed and sleep the rest of the day and eat gummy bears and fried Twinkies. What's that? I need to make 100 candles for next week. The UPS guy never found his way to my house with the supplies. I do apologize dearly. Oh look who came to visit, the government and they brought a dump truck loaded with regulatory rules and forms for me to read and fill out just so I can help sick people like me.

Aside from the humor that made me grin ever so slightly, what does everybody else do while they are waiting for their antidepressants to take full effect? You know that period that is just as bad as sitting in that rock hard chair in the freezing cold oncology wing, while waiting on your verdict of health.