I cut out of extreme anger/agitation and although I have not cut since 1999 and am NOT suicidal, cutting is a constant fantasy. I've cut in the past to punish myself for failures/ dissapointments /traumas I've caused or have been maliciously done to me. How come I don't feel the same intimacy and feelings associated with cutting?

I hope I'm not violating any policies with my post and I apologize if I have. I see a hypnotherapist, psychiatrist, clinic and was just recently let out of a psychiatric hospital and it's still not enough. I hope this website can help filll my voids.