I am so sorry you are having to go threw this. I hope it will pass soon, and your hell will end and you will have a true testimony to share. I hope some day you can share with others how to be strong and get threw the difficult stuff. That is how I see you. You are strong and you will get thru this stuff. I know it is hard to see right now. You have always given me hope where I saw none. Just hand in there. (((HUGS)))