Okay maybe i can describe my feelings better I basically feel disconnected from everyone in this world like I am not even a human. I feel isolated, dejected, alone and like earth isn't my home. I'd describe myself as almost feeling like an alien I know I look like everyone else but on the inside it doesn't feel that way I want to live on mars and if there were aliens maybe I'd finally feel at home. I don't feel like I belong on earth but on another planet here I finally described it for everyone. They say home is where your heart is will earth doesn't feel my home.