Thanks Refuse2Sink,

I'm very aware of PAWS, and it's definitely affecting me right now. And I do understand the need not to overwhelm myself - I'm just shooting for something higher, than doing absolutely nothing.

It's day 32 today, and while I'm happy about that, I'm noticing I'm not feeling significantly better, other than being through with the withdrawals. My brain still feels messed up. I know part of that's PAWS but it also tells me, it's going to take my brain a while to heal from all the relapsing.

I've decided to ask my rehab, if I can do their IOP while I wait to get into CAITS. It would give me something to do each day, and might help me deal with these crazy cravings that I'm having. Plus once I'm up and motivated, I'm much more likely to be productive and get things done during the rest of the day. So I'll ask them in contemplative today. I'm pretty sure they'll say yes, and hopefully I can start next Mon. I feel like a loser for needing the extra support, but I really do feel like I need it.