I´m not diagnosed with PTSD and never have been but as I still have very clear and difficult memories from my last therapy, about the abandonment combined with a huge feeling of loss I can´t get rid of I´m thinking about perhaps it developed into PTSD. I did a self evaluation test and scored 40 which is around cut-off value for PTSD depending on which test you used. I took the PCL-5.

I always feel very stressed and find myself easily crying over my former therapist. If I see pictures of the town where she has her practise, perhaps footage on the news or something, sometimes I begin to cry. I also avoid going into town even if I sometimes do but I then don´t go near the area where she has her practise. If I see someone who look like my former T I get sad and if I´m alone and see someone on TV for example I sometimes cry.

There are a lot of those examples and as the termination was over one and a half year ago I begin to suscpect PTSD. But at the same time I know PTSD isn´t applicable to my event as it´s more about having been in a war, witnessing death and such.

What do you think?