I don't know how I feel after sending you that email and receiving that response Old T. I still want it to be you and I don't know if I will ever get past that. I am pleased that New T and I are talking about it now and I do think that not seeing you is the right decision for me but it hurts, a lot. I appreciate that you agree with me and that you don't want to hurt me and that you are leaving the door open a d that you are sad with me. It really isn't fair or logical or right. I miss you terribly.