I keep reading about your experience with your therapist and honestly I have one question: what was your therapist supposed to do? Do you really think she was going to be your wife/partner/girlfriend? Of course she was going to reject you. Of course. And you were always going to suffer. Maybe it's time to move on? Honestly I don't see what your therapist could have done that would have eased your suffering, except become what you wanted her to be and what she could never be for you.