I thought I was handling things....but then, anxiety set in before going out to eat by the beach. I thought it would be a nice day, but I started feeling disconnected and closed off from everyone. On the way home, I was in tears and thinking if I were to write a suicide note, although I'm not actively suicidal. It's just the many thoughts running through my head and general feeling of being unworthy and hopeless. My mom noticed I was distant and looked "spaced out" at times. I feel slightly better now, but these dramatic mood swings are getting very hard to manage. Luckily, I feel a little relief since getting home today. I'm trying to think that just maybe tomorrow will be better, but it's hard.