couchies its me again.

advice me please.

this is really bothering me...above situation that i talked about with T.

i wont see him for 2 weeks. and next week i have a big family event coming up that i am hosting. i am just really down...and have lost all my excitement and energy. i am just quiet.

i need to resolve this.

T has an appt this week. available that i can book. only problem is i will have to pay 4x what i pay with insurance. he cant bill insurance twice right. i am busy next week i cant see him.

should i book the appt...pay the fee anf have the peace of mind?

everytime i have emailed him..he doesnt reply. and waits for the session to discuss.
and i hate talking on the phone.

i just have to do something to resolve this so i can stop feeling like a piece of crap and be happy like i was BEFORE todays appt.

also i have work ..so i am gonna call it in..and go in late