It's like a chain of feelings what are you saying.

I'd like to ask you a few questions if you let me

What makes you feel isolated?
How long have you been feeling like this and what have your doctor said about it?

I have seen previous posts of yours, i could bet you feel very lonely, but as i said before, there's always light in this world. Besides, there's nothing wrong in being by our own every once in a while.

Hope you get better and let us all help you