It's not wrong to need space.

You're dealing with a lot on your plate right now and seem to be taking care of everyone but YOU.

You need time for yourself and to focus on yourself.

If you don't feel ready for marriage, bottom line is, you're not ready.

It's hard to say how to accept love. Feeling worthy and deserving as a human being who is lovable and worthy of love is a good start. And you ARE worth it.