The first I have in "spades"...to the point that I don't breath correctly anymore...I have an MRI to prove it.
The second I don't have at all.

Made two presentations this past week...Thur and Fri...both the same...words and slides.

Thursday not too bad.
Friday...horrendous!!

I have posted about personal "value" before. I just can't find it in myself. Don't give me the love yourself lecture, please. Or the live my signature quote, please. I believe the signature quote, just don't live it very well.

I can hand it out, I just can't live it.

I always return feeling inferior to the rest of the world.
No matter what I do in live, I always feel inferior.
To the point that I have cancelled attending conferences and symposim...big ones that I really, really wanted to attend...cancelled because I just didn't feel I fit in anywhere.

Fit In...I haven't felt that I fit in anywhere since I was a kid. An never fit in back then...never!