I've been trying to access therapy for a long time on the NHS, but because I'm with a specialist MH team they only really cater for people who don't work; basically nothing out of hours that I could actually make it to. There was some talk about referring me back to my GP so they could do another referral to talk therapy, but honestly I just feel like none of them give a ****.

My care coordinator isn't exactly a fluffy kitten, I've been on his casebook for about 18 months now and I've still not been able to call him for advice or whatever. He's very practical - as long as I'm still at work I'm doing 'great'. Very irritating.

The thing is, I need to get off meds to start planning a family. If I talk to my pdoc, who I am seeing on the 11th, she may want to get the meds started again. That would ruin my husband's and my plans for a baby. So I have to be OK. I just don't know how to be OK.