I do work and am single mom. I take my meds,see my T. It is depressing sometimes..because i feel like'this is it. I will be doing meds seeing t,not doing other things-for rest of my life,in order to stay stable. Too much stress-without an outlet,will make me manic. Ive had to realize sometimes just going to work,care for kids stop buy few groceries-is all i can handle in 1 day-it frustrates me. So then i come home-too worn out to do laundry,to do bills,to clean-so push that off until next day. Lay on couch,veg,interact with kids...but it frustrates me because on some level-i thought "i would get better/be able do everything",only i cant. It seems i will really always have to pace myself and yes there is fear. Fear because if i try to be superwoman-again-will i wind up in patient! Or fear/sad because i compare myself to other women,who i think can do it all. On those days,im like God,why cant i do all those things...because I was classic over achiever in high school. I was the kid who got many awards did many activities etc