Was shocked by what my psychiatrist wrote on my discharge summary today. Said I had severe psychopathology amongst many other things that revealed the seriousness of my health. It also revealed just how much he cares. He reviewed all my files for my 27 admissions over the last 6.5 years. I knew it was a lot but 27!! Possible ADHD was added to my diagnosises and Bipolar dropped oddly despite his admission that I have had mood elevation, depression and mixed features that can be consistently tracked. Go figure.

On the plus side I am still doing really well since Saturday. Calm and happy and able to concentrate thanks to the addition of a stimulant. Also started Baclofen and have only needed 2mg of Clonazepam in 5 days, instead of the average of 4mg a day I had been on. Sorry for the detailed update, I am just so overwhelmed by my sudden change for the better and shock over how bad it was. You know how it is usually only when you feel better that you realise how bad it was.