I think it's both depression and your boyfriend. It sounds to me like your boyfriend IS being controlling of you and this is affecting the way you feel. It also sounds like you want to make other friends, which is a natural desire and need for people, but are having difficulty because you are feeling insecure about yourself. I haven't read any of your other posts, but have you ever heard of social anxiety? It could be something you are experiencing, and there are a lot of therapies out there for it. I am rereading your post, and honestly, it sounds like your boyfriend has many issues that he is taking out on you. He may not be actually trying to hurt you. But he is. And he's not listening to you. And you are not happy in the relationship. That is what I am hearing from this post, and it makes sense to me. It sounds like you have a hunch that if you break up with him, your depression will not go away because you are dealing with other things. And while that is not a healthy reason for staying, I understand why you might want to stay. Are you afraid to leave? You sound very confused about your emotions, and thoughts. I'm just reflecting back to you what I am reading from you. It is ok to set boundaries with people, you know, whether it's a friend, a classmate, a parent, a stranger, the world, or your boyfriend. Once you know what matters to you, and what is ok and not ok with you in terms of how other people behave towards you, that is where boundaries start. If someone crosses your boundary, and you keep letting them, or you cross you own boundary, that means your personal boundaries aren't good in that aspect, and ask yourself why.

I hope this helped, Jarajaramelon. I feel like I rambled a bit. But I hope the best for you and think you deserve to be happy. How old are you? Are you college age? I am not. But I just wondered about your age because I experienced stuff like this myself at that age. Game art sounds so cool.

Take care,

StarrySky