Carrie {{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs & kisses}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

I can't get the two parts of me together in one package. I firmly resist the idea that I have value, that I can do all those things - it simply is NOT me..........logically, I know it is a part of me, but it is simply an image of people expect.

Yes that is why I hate my T sometimes. I hate him for caring, for making me worry about disappointing him, for always being there unlike everyone else..........I am constantly waiting for him to fail me, and prove that he is like all the rest. I hate him for knowing the real me and still caring. He knows all this, that I am waiting for him to fail me. He says he won't and I really believe that - that makes it worse.

Take care.

Mary Alice