I had my session today so of course she asked me how it was not emailing. She thinks I did great and wants me to try this week too. But she still says I'm choosing to do this. So again I said part of me doesn't see what the big deal is and why we can't email. She then said something like "but you know it's good for you" or "it's the right thing to do", and "it IS a big deal for you." If it was not such a big deal, she said it would be fine to email every couple of months!

My problem is that I don't react in the session but "every few months?" Who is she fooling? If I could I'd want to email much more often! Her statement didn't hit me until later. So it's my choice but she wants me to stop. So I'll try another week and see how it goes. It is hardest tonight. I told her how much the support from these forums helps me, that other people don't understand.

I told her that the hardest part is giving up her email to me signed "love, T." We talked about how those are just words but what's important is that she DOES love me! She came right out and said "I love you" to me again. I hesitated and then said "I love you too." I said I should have recorded her words! So, I have her love any time I want it!!