> It is classic behavior for me to always be able to view things from other people's perspective. And I don't get angry at them. Maybe that is why. Because I can view things from their perspective, their behavior just seems reasonable to me.

Yeah. I think that ideally we are meant to be able to consider things from their perspective, yes. But I also think that ideally we are meant to be able to consider things from our perspective. To hold those both together in our minds at the same time so that our anger and hurt can be acknowledged as real and as understandable, while it also being moderated by our knowledge of the perspective of the other. In an ideal world lol. I lose that... Can flip from one to the other to one to the other but holding them both together in my mind is so very very hard.

Yeah, I don't know how he was feeling... I suppose it is possible that I'm projecting my feelings onto him. I do do that. Sometimes if I want to know how I feel the fastest way for me to figure that out is to ask myself what I think he feels lol. But that being said, there might be some truth to that. I do think that he mirrors me sometimes so when I look at him I do see myself reflected back. Maybe the idea is that if I can feel empathy for him while he is mirroring me then maybe I can start to internalise that and feel empathy for myself. Maybe.

He does a couple of things that I really don't like. One is little comments about 'sucks to feel powerless' and I'm like 'I'm not powerless, I'm not'. Except I don't say that, I just ignore him and hope the part of him that says / thinks that will just go away. Another is that sometimes he sits back in his chair with his legs apart and kind of thrust out. One of my friends says that it might be that he is stretching his legs because he is tall and he isn't aware of how it comes across. I think he is too deliberative in his posture for that, however. I don't much like that. I think he does that when I'm expressing anger / annoyance (not at him). I guess the idea is that my anger / annoyance comes from feelings of powerlessness so I defend against the powerlessness by coming across as dominant and assertive and maybe even a bit domineering and narcissistic (I don't need him!) I guess that is when he does that, to kind of mirror me. Well... I really don't like that.

Though of course I'll never say that in one million years. Sigh. Cringe.

> Will you talk about this same topic tomorrow?

I'm not sure. I guess... I'm typically very passive when I arrive and I need him to say some things to kind of get me started on something. He can be kind of directive sometimes. Sometimes I resist a little and go on a tangent. That is kind of what happened last time, I think. I was trying to avoid having to talk about my abusive relationships (which I told him about the week before) and... My Mother... Trying to avoid having to talk about the pain too much. Just because... I really opened up about all that the week before and I need to be a little careful with myself. So last week I guess I got to this stuff instead... Maybe I'll return to that... Or maybe I'll return to stuff from the time before... Or maybe I'll think up something new.

Thank you.