Trippin, thank you for your support. I don't know what to do. I know that the Stockholm Syndrome still has a strong hold on me. It may always IDK. I crave abuse it appears. I continue to go back to this and want to go back to this. In stockholm syndrome it involves a very deep love and need. It makes no since. I can;t really explain it. It is a maddening illness for sure. It contains a kind of brain washing that you could never imagine.

Any way, I still don't; know what I will do. I see him adn talk to him and he seems so nice. Tonight I saw him and he was harmless. I am drawn to him, but I know the risk I take by going back. It's jsut so confusing.