Ugh T. I can most certainly say that I will not tell you that all day during the car ride home, I told myself "I really absolutely need to take a break from drinking. It gets me nowhere." I got home, went to practice, felt like shyte, and immediately came home and told myself "Just a few sips to calm down." Mhhmmm...that was an hour and a half ago.

I hate myself, T. I hate these feelings or whatever it is that I push away with alcohol. But, I don't know how else to deal. I really don't.