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Originally Posted by Rive.
I agree with your T: i believe it is a big deal - and all to your credit. 
I guess she means that if you can integrate or ‘absorb’ the love/connection, you wouldn’t need emailing as much. It’s because it is a big deal, and your over-reliance (she wants you to be less dependent on external objects i.e. her) on this tool, that she hopes you can restrict emails (showing you can self-soothe, dig into your inner strength and even inner love).
Independence - or at less reliance on her emails - doesn’t mean she doesn’t love you or you don’t need her anymore but instead, that you can ‘use’ her ever present love/care/affection as a comfort blanket. And you can draw from this ‘love’ blanket whenever you need. |
Do you remember the poem I wrote that I posted in the forum, called The Blanket of Love? It was about holding T's hand. She said that blanket of love can be with me all the time, just like you are saying. Parts of me didn't grow up. They need this love so much that it hurts and makes me cry because I want my T and my mother. She said today that everyone wants their mother no matter how old they are. (Or a mother figure though she didn't say that to me).
I see why this is good for me, aside from the logical angle that T could leave. It's putting me in touch with these powerful feelings of loss and need.