lolagrace: would insurance still pay if i see 2 different T's same week..or alternating weeks? just curious.

i have appt tomorrow first thing in the morning...
i am going to be really honest with him...and see how he takes it...i wont let him talk in circles this time..and avoid direct questions...
this might totally backfire...he might get defensive...or it may not be resolved...and i might end up feeling worse than before.
but atleast i will know where we stand and what to do next.
i can try out a different T...

regardless..i am super proud of myself...that i chose the adult route of communicating...rather than dealing with it internally...in a negative..(i.e.SH)
wow..i am really growing not sure who to thank...or how i have ended up here...like a moment of realization...or something that caused changed in my thinking..i can not pinpoint it...why am i not SHing like i used to and choosing to find another option. (T and i dont talk about SH ..so he gets no credit in helping me with this)
anyway...i am nervous about tomorrow...seeing how strong/weak our therapeutic relationship is.
will he be a grown up about it..or be childish.
am i prepared to lose him?
will he be totally clueless as to what i am talking about?
what if he just says i am sorry...this caused you so much distress it wasnt my intention...will this be enough for me...? is that all i want from him...or do i want more?
i dont know actually...
i want him to fully understand, validate and acknowledge my feelings(hopefully i can convey them clearly and not be embarassed)
omg...i cant believe i am gonna do this tomorrow. i have never ever done this. i cant believe i am being so brave to face the consequences of being upfront and direct.

is this really me?
wow.
i am totally impressed !

its late at night...gonna go to bed..and hmm..will update how it went.
hopefully positive outcome. fingers crossed.

good night couch !!!!!