The worst thing in the world is to have a mother with a low opinion of you,who insists you obey her and are at her beck and call day and night meeting her every need and is ultra sensitive to what you say, defensively so but doesn't respect or care one iota about your feelings,does not empathize when she hurts you,feels no remorse and only says sorry when she needs to suck you in to do more of the same!

That is toxic and very damaging,to self esteem,confidence,trust and emotional and psychological health.She is your mother does that justify keeping contact with her when she has neglected you from the age of 5 and harmed your emotional health,caused you emotional distress and driven you to suicide.

Have this woman in my life?Certainly not,feel any remorse or regret for cutting her out of my life,none, feel responsible or worry about her welfare,not anymore!

I come first and that is the bottom line from now on.I hope this helps you see you are important cos narcissistic mothers always ensure you put them first and grant them more importance than you do for yourselves.That is no way to live.