It's not about switching off your feelings.
Nobody gets through a break up because they have a magic love switch they get to turn on and off.
We get through them by sheer will and determination.
The feelings fade by themselves after time as you begin to heal.
You torture yourself by holding onto the hurt and thus never allowing any time for these feelings to dissipate.
As vile as this man is, I'm sorry to say it, but you are the one hurting yourself here. You're actively choosing to wait in the wings, and you will keep hurting until you choose differently.
Divine's right, a lil self respect would go a long way in your situation. I really hope you get to that point.
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DXD BP1, BPD & OCPD
"The best way to make it through with hearts and wrists in tact, is to realise, two out of three aint bad" FOB...
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